Wednesday, 11 November 2015


It's Diwali today. People are burning candles and enlightening their surroundings. I did the same; I lighted diyas early in the evening . But, along with diyas, I was also burning. Burning inside.

She mailed me asking if I remember how it all had started.  She told me that it had started with "Happy Diwali" on Facebook.
Shamelessly, she asked if we can start it all over again. It means that she was asking me to trust her again. Betraying me 4 times, she was asking me to forget everything seeking to be friends at least. This was very ridiculous and funny. These were the same dialogues as she had used before; and I was fool to trust her again and again.
I was almost about to say yes but controlled myself. I made her remember what she has done to me.  She further added that It was important for her to know about me and what's happening with me.

She said that she always comes back. But I realized coming back and cheating is her habit. She doesn't care about my emotions, she doesn't value me as a person. She is a deceiver.

My heart was melting after hearing her voice, I was dying to hear her. But, what I had to hear that she was more interested in my whereabouts and what I am going through rather then telling that She wanted to make things right. Making me as a Facebook chat friend, which I never wanted, she wanted that to me become.

I had promised myself not to contact her and I never did nor I will. I feel I wouldn't have replied her also. I feel she is not in pain as I do. This is making my pain worse.

She also told me that I can take it as chance to choose and be happy, LOL.

What she doesn't know is that she comes and goes for her happiness, she acts according to her mood.
Her so called love is mood-dependent love, feeling-based love.

She will never know what is love.

She asked me to let her know if I get married. She never tried to make things right again. I told her that I would never get over her. I will not forget her, I can't. I will remember her as a cheater.

I have now a feeling that, I am scared of her more than I love her. I am scared of her lies, her gimmick-oriented mix-up character, her weird definition of love and most of her deceiving love. She will keep playing with me and my emotions.

Monday, 9 November 2015

When should a person not forgive?

By: Tamara Biediger (From Quora)

A person should not forgive when they decide they should not forgive.

Forgiveness is a powerful thing. It is often more cathartic for the person bestowing forgiveness than the person receiving it. But not always.

Forgiveness for the sake of forgiveness can ring hollow. Often, we are encouraged to forgive sleights against us in order for our own sake - in order to move past an event that caused us grief. It is treated as though it is a necessary component for closure.

I contend that it is not. For example, my ex-husband inflicted mental and emotional abuse on me. I have never forgotten the things he did. I have since moved on from the bad experience and it no longer resonates in my daily life. But I did not forgive him and I have several reasons.

First, he showed no remorse for his actions. Sure, I could have forgiven him in spite of his attitude, but that smacks of martyrdom. The only person who would know of my magnanimous forgiveness would be me and anyone else I told about it and I preferred to leave him out of my current relationships entirely. He did terrible things to me, and I saw no point in giving him a pass for it.

Second, I have moved past the incidents. I feel no particular malice for him anymore, nor do I feel any need to validate anything he's done against me. It simply does not matter anymore.

Wednesday, 14 October 2015

Trash Deposit Among Human Beings

She is a lunatic who is the most egotistical and numb woman on earth being belligerent, madcap and selfish for everything. She is complete trash from top to toe.

Instead of correcting herself, she hassles others. First she lures and traps them into relationships. Afterward, she condemns them so that people considering their personal flaws shall not perceive hers. She is one agony who entirely exploits any man who comes into her life and then dumps them.

The existence of each man who goes near her or falls in love with her gets cleaned out as she is a scheming ghetto. Tomorrow she may entrap someone for nuptials or affairs and ruin that person too.

The reason of her life is that God wanted to explain us that “trash deposits” do exist among human-beings.